HaTe ThEsE FEELING!!!!

I never really liked u...after getting to know u i think i really like u now...i wouldn't say yr handsome or cute or blah blah bt something about you makes me to go ooolalalla...there's something about you but till this moment i x know wat it is...eventhough i know there's nothing can happen between us but i still hope that you'll be my friend..not to say i have feelings for u bt i got this wish that i hope that i can see and talk to you almost everyday..it would be more than enough..i never ask for this to happen to me..i never had this kinda feeling towards anyone till now but now i do..yyyy????is it true feelings????i x know..but right now this moment i gave up on you because of someone..i think that u might like this person cause she is much much better than me...she is more feminine,sweeter won't use foul words wherby i use it like almost everyday..hahaha she suits you more than i do i guess..ahhh wat rubish am i talking..its okay it will take some time for me to get back to normal but i'll try my level best..perhaps i think i gotta crush on u..don't mistaken me after all i'm just a normal girl who has the same feelings as other girls at the age of 18..sorry......forgive me if i've changed yr impression about me..i may act or look  like i x care bt deep down inside i do.....

18th OF LIVING.....

Hey dad and mom thanks for the very advance b'day gift..it was awesome..eventhough the bear is in pink bt i still love it..and yea thanks for the cool ferrero rocher chocolate..suprinsly u guys gave me that much of chocolate whereby normally amma won;t even let me to eat a single piece of sweet stuffs..btw my 18th gift is really nice..something i wanted for a very long time..FINALLY GOT IT..thanks guys...